Missy crossed the rainbow bridge on Monday, 39 months after being diagnosed with hemangiosarcoma.
We hope her best buddy, Smudge, was waiting for her, ready to play their favorite game of chase.
We knew Missy was fading last week and on Sunday she was very subdued, licking her belly a lot. That told us she felt pain or discomfort there even though she was on painkiller.
Monday morning while we were eating breakfast, she suddenly sat up, shaking all over. We jumped up just as she seized briefly, let out a terrible shriek, and collapsed. I checked her gums and they were grey. I figured she was having an internal bleed and thought that was the end. But gradually the color returned to her gums and she revived.
Then an hour later, the whole episode repeated, except this time with two heart-rending shrieks. We considered administering Yunnan Baiyao, a chinese medicine known for its clotting properties, but decided what we were seeing was probably such a large bleed that we should not intervene and let her go.
She did revive again, though the color of her gums didn’t return to normal.
We decided that from here forward her suffering was going to continue and get worse. So while we waited for the vet’s office to open in another hour, we used the time to treat her to some of her favorite foods in small amounts. She relished everything enthusiastically and got lots of massage and kisses.
When the vet’s office opened we took her to say good-bye. We cried all the way there, though we tried to be a little happy for her sake.
She went very quickly and without fanfare, just faded away. I watched the light go out of her eyes and knew she was gone from us.
We feel so fortunate to have had her in our lives for 3 years after diagnosis, a benchmark few dogs with hemangiosarcoma ever reach. We have so many good memories to cherish and my husband and I have been re-telling Missy stories to each other all week.
Yet in our grief we feel she was cheated of so much life.
Thanks for being on this journey with us. At some point, I will write one more post that covers the story of Missy, along with links to earlier articles, for quick reference for others who find this little corner of the web and want to know more about Missy’s hemangiosarcoma journey and exceptional survival time.
Rest in peace, little Missy Moo. We will always love you.